Tough Love

In an idle moment one day last week I calculated that I’ve got up at or before dawn approximately 160 times just in the last three years. In other words, I average one preposterously early morning a week, and rarely make up for it by sleeping longer in the evenings. There may be a certain magic to starting the day whilst most folk are still slumbering, but spending the remainder of it yawning like a foghorn is somewhat less enchanting.

Early morning. Brutal. Well, actually quite lovely. But also brutal.

Early morning. Brutal. Well, actually quite lovely. But also brutal.

Now it’s fair to say that birds often make it worthwhile, whether I’m counting, watching or ringing them. They’re the good part, the wouldn’t-miss-it-for-the-world part, full of wonder, peace, surprise and glory. The flip-side is rubbing the sleep out of your eyes at 4 in the morning, and again at about supper time in a desperate attempt to convince your body that it hasn’t quite made it through a full day yet.

Last Wednesday, just for a change, I ventured out in the evening to a local heath in an attempt to catch and ring nightjars. Three hours and the closest we got was one bouncing off our net, and I didn’t return home until after midnight. The closest I got to making a contribution to nature conservation that night was in the quantity of blood I donated to local mosquito populations.* I’m a generous chap.  So on Sunday it was back to being up with – no, before the larks. I got up at 3 – 3! – so early that it was still just about dark, despite being the second earliest dawn of the year.

So why do we do it? Ringers, surveyors, ecologists, just-for-pleasure birders? Is it all in the name of science? Well, maybe. But it’s hard to see the great significance of much of what we do. Conservation? In that conservation is more than or perhaps primarily not a science at all, yes: what data we do generate will hopefully be used to enhance wildlife conservation, and the very act of engaging with nature in a way that is quite hard work tends to inspire a deeper commitment to the cause.  And sometimes we have to honestly say that our efforts are made in the name of showing off, or keeping up appearance. Ego is our primary motivation more often than we like to admit, I think.

However, I must say that knowledge, worthy causes and human vanity only explain so much.  I always come back to that fluffiest of words: love. It has to be love.

But as we’ve seen, it isn’t so fluffy, love. It’s hard as nails. It’s the willingness to risk mosquito and midge bites, swollen eyes full of pollen, being frozen to the bone, over-heating to the point of exhaustion, sweating, shivering, getting soaked, hunger pangs for third breakfast before the sun is even up, bramble scratches, nettle stings, not to mention an alarmingly high risk of contracting Lyme disease or some other tick-born nasty.  And that’s just me. There are places in the scarcely imagined depths of the world in which people risk their very lives for conservation. For nature. For a simple feather-and-bone bird.

So there we have it: we conservationists are all deeply, utterly, irredeemably in love. That or we are all just completely crackers. That’s certainly how I feel, when I come home exhausted, weather-beaten and licking my wounds.

*I should add that it was a great experience nonetheless, lest I sound ungrateful. I hope to write more about it, and a more successful outing from last summer, very soon. 

The Herald

New beginnings don’t often happen in the first floor men’s toilets on the north corridor of the Harborne building. That is, as far as I know. It’s possible that some significant works of science have had their genesis within those windowless, cobwebbed walls, but somehow I doubt it. Tis not a place that anybody would chose to linger long.

Unless one happens to be a moth, apparently, for that is what I disturbed from the underside of a toilet roll holder on Monday morning, ushering in the moth year proper, in that it was the first decent sized, nicely patterned macro moth (i.e. larger ones – but not always!) I’d seen in 2014. Which means, of course, that I had to know what it was, and being a still inexperienced moth-er I knew this would also mean capturing it for later observation. I gave the moth, now motionless in the middle of the tiled floor, a quick but intense look. It was a beautiful, leaf-like mottled brown beast draped with tongues of glowing orange fire across the shoulders. “Wait there!” I cried, warning the poor startled creature with a wave of my index finger. “Just wait there a minute!”

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Singing in the faux-dusk of LED streetlamps, two robins fling phrases back and forth. Each challenge in their musical duel is met with a rebuttal from the opposing bird, tauntingly similar in structure yet moving the duet on with new variations on the theme. This stream of sound, carrying gently through the descending drizzle, stops me in my tracks. I listen; the birds continue, the closest of them seemingly oblivious to my presence just a few meters from his song perch.


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